I WENT TO THE DOCTOR THE OTHER DAY AND FOUND OUT THAT OUR THIRD CHILD DOES NOT HAVE A HEART BEAT. SO, WE ARE HAVING TO HAVE A D&C TOMORROW. THIS REALLY SUCKS! I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS HOW OUT OF THE BLUE THIS CAME FOR ME! I MEAN I HAVE HAD TWO HEALTHY PREGNANCIES AND CHILDREN AND I JUST WAS NOT EXPECTING ANY DIFFERENT WITH THIS ONE. IT HAS BEEN REALLY HARD TO ACCEPT. I DO CONSIDER MYSELF A VERY STRONG PERSON AND I WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS TOUGH TIME WITH THE SUPPORT OF MY FAMILY. MY TWO LITTLE BOYS HAVE BEEN SUCH A HELP. THEY ARE SUCH ANGELS AND GIFTS FROM GOD. I AM TRULY BLESSED. I AM GLAD THAT I CAN STILL SEE THE GOOD IN LIFE, BECAUSE THIS EXPERIENCE HAS REALLY SHOWED ME A DARK SIDE TO LIFE.
SO HERE IS A QUICK UPDATE ON THE BULLINGER'S BEFORE I HAVE TO RUN OUT TO WORK TONIGHT. LETS SEE I FOUND OUT ABOUT 5 WEEKS AGO THAT WE ARE EXPECTING OUR THIRD CHILD IN NOVEMBER. I AM ABOUT 10 WEEKS PREGNANT NOW, DID NOT SEE THAT ONE COMING! I HOPE THIS IS MY GIRL BECAUSE THIS IS ALL FOR US, I'M GETTING FIXED THIS TIME WITH MY C-SECTION. ALSO THIS HAS BEEN A NOT SO FUN WEEK , I HAD TO TAKE GAVIN TO THE ER FOR THE 2ND TIME IN A MONTH. 1ST TIME HE FELL OUTSIDE AND HIT HIS HEAD AND THIS TIME HAD 105 TEMP. ALL HAS TURNED OUT WELL FOR HIM, BUT MAN IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A GREAT MOM AND NURSE, LET ME TELL YOU. I HAVE BEEN WORKING AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, BUT WORK HAS CUT OUT ALL OF MY OVERTIME AND THAT SUCKS FOR THE SOLE FAMILY PROVIDER. OH WELL, GOD WILL PROVIDE! ALSO I HAD A CRAZY MOMENT AND BOUGHT A SPORTS CAR. I THINK THAT WHOLE PREGNANCY NEWS SHOCKED ME AND I HAD TO DO SOMETHING CRAZY. I BOUGHT A USED RED RX8. IT IS SO CUTE! I ALREADY HAVE A FAMILY CAR, SO I THOUGH, WHY NOT? WELL, THIS IS ALL THE UPDATING I HAVE TIME FOR RIGHT NOW. I WILL TRY TO DO BETTER AT UPDATING! GOT TO RUN FOR NOW!
